While Im waiting...

 Last night, I did not sleep well I was ready to go to sleep but I couldn't stop worrying about tomorrow. :-(  

( FYI I know all the verses and understand all of them but sometimes it is still hard and you know it!) Also, I was really sad because their are people I know who are going through so much pain and I don't have the right words to say. I want to take their pain away! Its not fair! But I am trying my best to be there for them and just pray for them.  I believe in these hard times we are being tested to see how much we can take. Eventually this thing we are going through will seem so far away as we have a God who has a plan for us.

 Jeremiah 29:11

New Century Version (NCV)

¹¹ I say this because I know what I am planning for you," says the Lord. "I have good plans for you, not plans to hurt you. I will give you hope and a good future.

Today, I woke up about 12 or 1230pm because I had a long night well and sometimes I just feel  like I can sleep for days. When I wake up I stretch and then I think about my to do list and then roll out of bed lol. Today I got a stupid rejection letter from an Employer and well it was very discouraging but one of my friends reassured me that everything is fine I will get a job eventually. It was exactly at the time I started to ball so it was definitely something I needed to hear. I still feel somewhat discouraged about the letter though because i know I got rejected for bad credit. and at the interview I was told that they were going to do a credit check and that people who have bad credit are more likely to steal so that is why they cant always find work. I feel like a low life with bad credit but I would never in a million years steal. I was robbed once so I could never do that to anyone. Also, I wouldn't be able to live with the guilt. 

Well after the letter I wanted to go back to bed but I knew that would solve nothing. If I'm in a bad mood its going to create more problems than solve them. So, I decided to go and run my errands. I walked outside and seeing the leaves on the ground everywhere and the sun shining a little it really helped my mood. Even though it was cold the walking helped too.

Tonight, I got to drive in Moberly for the first time and it was really scary at first but then as I drove it was Fun and Easy! Moberly driving is easier than driving in Firestone, CO the speed doesn't change as often and the streets aren't as crazy! :-) Its nights like tonight that I'm thankful for my license and someday I cant wait to have a car! I drove to Taco Bell :-)

By the way God is good! I still have 3 months of rent! Of course I hope to get a job within this month. But knowing that I have rent money helps me to be more relaxed than stressed. and My awesome roommates would never kick me out. 

While I'm waiting on a:

• Job
• Car
• Place of my own
• Future Husband 
• Future kids
• My degree/Certificate

 I have decided to make these Commitments to God: 

Lord, While I am waiting for answers I will serve you. Its not easy but I will keep trusting in you to help me through life. I will not give up on what I need to do. I will be obedient to you! 

 I heard this song on fireproof and its definitely an encouragement!