The only reason I shop at Wal-Mart this time of year is because it is the mall of Moberly... No joke!The only mega store in the city for 7,000 people to shop for everything in one place. Especially at Christmas time! I wanted to ram into people to get them to move lol But I would like to keep my sanity. Tonight I went there with my roommates so they can get stuff for Christmas dinner and I was so excited about my end table and Wall decor to spend Christmas Gift check from Grandma :-) that I didn't think about the dessert I offered to pay for. Whoops! O well i bought half of dinner :-) When I entered Wal-Mart I wanted to just walk back out but I really wanted my stuff too so I stayed. My Wal-mart had no Carts whatsoever. The cart situation was so bad that a greeter started pulling in the "not so good carts" lol.
Well I ran into a lady I use to go to CCCB with. I really cant remember her name but she is such a sweetheart! and I asked her how things were and well I found out tutoring jobs are being dropped. That in my opinion, Is crazy! I cant believe that! We need tutors! Heck I suck at being Mathematical and may need a tutor for Math. I wont be able to hire one but maybe I can find a friend that can help me with it when I do go for my Accounting Business Certificate. I also ran into another lady I knew but this one I wasn't exactly thrilled to run into her but with the grace of God in me I went up to her and told her Merry Christmas and asked her about how things were. It was extremely awkward but I did it. Not really sure why but just maybe she needed someone to wish her a Merry Christmas and ask her about how she was? After the 2 women I ran into I started approaching the chaos! People in every aisle of the store and stopping right in front of you and not moving just so they can take forever deciding on what they want to buy or to talk stand there and talk. I was panicking I felt like I was going to faint and I was hungry because I didn't have dinner just yet. If you know me you know how I get when I am hungry. I get distant and I seem agitated.
Well tonight something else did in fact upset me, but Its personal and it wasn't because of anybody. I cant talk about it sorry. the words just wont come out. It should be easy for me to talk to my friends about everything since I trust them with my life but sometimes I feel like I just need to work it out on my own and talk to God to deliver me from whatever I'm going through. Plus, I don't want to come across as a negative ungrateful person. Especially because for the most part I am really happy in Moberly. My living situation is great, I never starve, I don't feel lonely like I did in Colorado and in Florida because I am surrounded by people going through the same stuff as me and it helps to be because we can help each other more when we all understand each others circumstances.Job searching is hard but I am for the most part staying positive about that too because I am doing all I can do I apply for jobs so much that I dream about it sometimes.
Bunny trails lol I don't know why but I am having a little bit of a problem being focused right now. Perhaps because its almost Midnight? Back to Wal-Mart at Christmas time. Seriously, all we need is some clowns and some animals and then the store would be complete lol What a zoo/circus! When I finished my shopping I was heading back to the register and it was taking so long getting through the traffic I was thinking about saying "Beep Beep" Lol It took like 10 minutes to get to a register then when I did ,thank God there was a register that was clear of people.
I would rather be a Cashier for Wal-Mart during the Holidays than go shopping there. I actually do miss being a cashier. One year this particular old lady came to my register and had 7 Christmas gift cards she had been given over a 4 year period and she told me that it was her first time being out of her house in 4 years. She told me she was scared to do anything without her deceased husband but finally realized that she needed some cheering up so she came to use her gift cards. The most amazing part is she didn't use a lot of it on herself and she mostly bought her kids and grand kids gifts.She was so sweet and I told her that "she was brave to step out of her house and that she was beautiful and the best customer I have ever had." Her face went from sad to a huge smile :-) My next customer after her was a complete jerk by the way.He was like in his mid 40s looked like a biker or something. Anyways, he threw his stuff on the Belt and I said . "Hello, How are you today" and he put his hand up and said "just bag my effing groceries lady" I wanted to throw his stuff back at him and refuse his service. But I didn't 1. I would have gotten fired and 2. the sweet old lady before him had made my day and I wasn't going to let this bah hum bug ruin it.
Well its officially Christmas Eve! Merry Christmas Eve! I love the fact that this weekend I will be with my roommates and one of my roommates family and I don't even have to travel away from home for it :-) Its going to be Epic! We have so much fun Decorating gingerbread houses playing the Wii one of my roommates opened early and I cant wait to watch people open presents Christmas day. I love watching people open their presents and being surprised about what they got.I love to give presents also :-) I have presents to open and I will love whatever I got but I would have been fine also if no one did anything for me because i love to give more than receiving. It does in a way make me feel special like I was thought of too though :-) We are also, going to the Christmas Eve Service at my church Saturday night at First Baptist. I love Christmas Eve services because it gives people a last minute reminder about what Christmas is actually about .:-) The other things are nice too but the most important thing to remember is that Jesus was born in Bethlehem one starry night. It may not be December 25th but it did happen :-) I'm not saying that you have to avoid presents and all the other commercialism I'm just saying let us not forget the Creator of the universe the Creator of you and I.
Please pray for my Grandma this is a tough Christmas for her. A month ago she lost a dog and now she is losing her lifetime best friend and they are pulling the plug today. Death is not something that is easy but my Grandma is a very strong lady and she is trying to stay positive through it all because she says she knows that they are better off not suffering anymore and are in a better place. Heaven.
God Bless you all have a safe meaningful Christmas remember Jesus' Birth :-) I may not be blogging until December 26th we will see...
Merry Christmas Eve!
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