This is my bullying Story:
Elementary School: I had short hair and I loved to wear dresses and so I was called a boy who wore dresses. I had a neighbor who told me if I didn't do everything they said; I would be tattled on. In 5th grade, a girl sat behind me on the bus and kicked my seat and put gum in my hair and socked me in my arm.and said I was so ugly she couldn't bear to look at me.
Middle School: 6th-8th I was called Orka the whale and Raviki (Overweight Wrestler) and the kids in the hall would run away if I walked near them and chanted that they didnt want to be sat on. I was also called Lice girl and rumors would be spread around school about countless things. Kids even at one point told me I had a boyfriend I didn't have. I also had rocks thrown at me. and a girl had a whole class chanting that I was a beep and crumbled up paper and put it in my hair and told people in the class that to look at the paper as lice. Also, my glasses were often knocked off my face and one pair was stomped on.
High school: I didn't pay to much attention to bullying but every time I got in an argument with a friend they would call me fat and start rumors which never lasted long.
Besides School :I was called stupid and retarded by some people who were suppose to be there for me.(Until College I believed I was stupid) People joked about me not finishing High school and I did! and I have worked for some employers that have been bullies. The difference with the employers is I stuck up for myself not by repaying them but by using positive reinforcement and being kind to them when they weren't kind to me.Also, I had a roommate that said I was a waste of space.
I repented of this but their was one girl my sophomore year in HS I bullied a little bit ( I called her ugly\ :-( ) While I never did any physical harm I know I hurt her emotionally. If you are reading this Blog I am so sorry..
To This Day: I hate short hair on me I don't like dresses except for special occasions and have spent years working on my poor self esteem. But the self esteem has gotten better though God over time . And I'm just trying to pray for those who have bullied me and others that I know are getting bullied or bullying others.
Note : Bullying is not just at school its everywhere and bullying can be from anyone.
1. If you are getting bullied. You are not alone! Talk to someone! Don't try to handle it yourself because if you do you are just creating a never ending cycle of emotional and/or physical harm. Its good to be different!You have nothing to prove to anyone except God and he knows everything about you. Stand up for yourself I mean don't cause pain pack but tell them its not true and if it gets to the point of physical pain you need to report it to someone you trust. Hang your head high knowing God has a plan for you. Jeremiah 29:11.See yourself through Gods eyes. And he loves you! Also, you can write things you like about yourself and post the sticky notes on your mirror or somewhere in your bedroom as a self esteem booster. Feel free to privately message me too. I'm a great listener.
2. If you are bullying someone.. Cut it out! you are doing emotional and/or physical pain. Some people will never get over the pain you caused and some will spend many years trying to make themselves perfect because anything else is not acceptable to them. Some will end their lives because they feel alone and that no one cares.Some will seek revenge. A few wont be affected at all. We don't need anymore school shootings. You may think those words are innocent but they are not and they will have an impact on that person. Words do hurt! You may justify it as having fun but that is really selfish to want to cause pain to others for your own amusement and we were not created to be hurtful to others.
In the end, their will always be those who get bullied and those who bully others. How you deal with it is your choice.
I just really hope if you see someone getting bullied you stand up for them. and if you are bullying please stop. If you are getting bullied don't look at yourself as a mistake. Some don't care whether you care what they think or not and so you just have to remember they are bullying you because some don't have a high self esteem and are too probably getting bullied.
Dear Heavenly Father,
I pray for bullying awareness to be made more known. I pray that we would stand up against bullying ourselves. I pray that you would heal the heart of those who have bullied others and are living with the guilt. I pray that we would learn to be more accepting of others and ourselves. For you made everyone.Lord, I pray for those I know are getting bullied or being the bully. Thank You!
