Im back in the "Magic City" AKA Moberly

My day started at 7 am this morning! :p I was pretty tired from not  sleeping the night before... I got something like 4 hours. I am  so clumsy when I it comes to mornings lol I tripped over my suitcases 5 times today I spilled my soda 2 times  on the plane and I kept running into walls ,chairs etc... throughout the day.Life is funny huh? you get a great idea and you run with it but sometimes that idea becomes you because you fear that what your thinking is nothing more than an idea. This move is great but its had its challenges of going through the motions of what happened in the place you had been living. I did want Colorado to work but no matter how much I tried it wasnt for me. I was lonely and by the time I got my job it just wasnt enough to stay anymore and it felt like a strange land to me when I went back to live there. My immediate family was gone and my brother Tim was too far away along with my friends in Colorado.

Sure I could of stayed and got a car but I still couldnt handle being in Colorado anymore without my other family and it was too pricey. And honestly with all the bad memories I have there it was like going back to my past;Instead of moving forward. I also realized that if I was miserable I was doomed to make others miserable as well and thats the last thing I wanted. My family is also not as close as they were. Or maybe we have never been close and I finally just realized it.   People can call this move running until they are blue in the face but the truth is...

When I moved to:

• Missouri the first time it was to move forward and get a college degree.
• Florida was because College was done and I was invited to live there with my brother and sis in law
• Back to Colorado because I was almost homeless and I thought I could change my past and make Colorado my home but it never was. .
• Back to Moberly Because I regret not coming back sooner when I have regretted leaving since the day I left. 

While I sat on that plane I cried. I thought about all the times I have sinned in my life and I felt ashamed. I know my actions and words and things have hurt God and it makes me sick to know I have sinned without considering him. I finally felt the pain of all my sin and it was killing me inside. I know I will never be perfect but I really do want to do better because I know I'm capable of better.  After a few mins of crying I said a prayer  about this move and then opened my book and started reading.  When I got off the plane I got lost on my way to the MOX bus and then I found it. I tried to sleep on the bus but it was too "Bumpy" so I read some Psalms and prayed some more and listened to some music and the first song that came on was "Its my Life" by Bon Jovi :-) That song is so true! I am posting that song at the end of my blog for your enjoyment :-)

When I got to the Columbia Mall I waited for Lauren,Ashley and Brittany I walked around the food court with my luggage and I had talked with a couple of people that decided to talk with me and they both told me they hate Missouri lol. Well when my friends got to the mall I saw Lauren first and i ran up to her and gave her hug then she handed me the key to my new home :-). We then got in Ash Ash's fabulous Nice car! We all went to Fudruckers Ive been wanting to eat there for months :) so yummy! After dinner we went to Wal-Mart in Moberly and I got some stuff. During the whole night I had fun conversations with Ash and Lauren and Brittany. Well Brittany cant talk right now but she is Awesome and friendly and im glad I know her.

My new home with Ash and Steve and Brittany is Amazing! I fell in love with it and their Dog Cady . Since I have been home I have been hanging out with Brittany and Ash Ash and another Ashley that I know that came for a visit waiting for Steve-O to come home. When he came home it was so nice to see him again too. Nice to have my other family back:-)

 So glad im back here! Tomorrow will be another fun day with a christmas showcase downtown and hanging out with Lauren. :-)

 Sure the job thing is scary but God has a plan and im going to keep searching for a job! I'm giving it all to God :-)

Lonely River Runs No More!

I Jessica admit it! I have been so lonely in Colorado. Yes I have been living with family and things but I have not been able to make friends that I could hang out with on an ongoing basis. Some of the people I met and did become friends with were great but they had kids and a companion and that would interfere with the amount of time I got to see them. That is another reason why I loved Dish Network my job was to talk to people all day and so I didn't have time to be alone.

Well,that lonely river is no more as I am stepping into a new place in 7 days I know their is so much opportunity  for great things that I will not have time to be lonely.

7 days I will be in Missouri :-) I am so excited to See everyone! And eat at Fudruckers and go to Wal-mart like old times and whatever else fun/trouble we can get into lol. Kidding about the trouble! We are all pretty much level headed and goal oriented and its just going to be nice being in a town full of people around my age facing the same life stuff as me :-) So thankful for the Jones' Family for opening their home to me while I put my life back on track and find a job and then get my own place/car.

Woot im going to see breaking dawn today I hope its good

TTYL World  ps this song "Lonely River by Susan Ashton" is pretty and on days I felt alone I listened to this song and allowed myself to cry then remembered that god is the reason for all the beauty and he is always there :-)

A Tribute to Dish Network My Best Employer so far!

Yesterday, was my last day of work before I went in I cried myself a river. I was really sad to leave that job and had contemplated this move for a long time. What I have realized is that it is because of this Career opportunity that I have confidence in getting a Business Certificate and/or another degree such as Counseling or Christian Education. It was at my most desperate hour God came through for me and blessed me with this incredible Job. I don't like calling it a job though because to me it was more than a job it opened my eyes to other possibilities. If you know me... Then you know I'm one of the most stubborn people you will ever meet. Once my mind is made up good luck changing it. But for once I'm changing it big time by getting a business certificate.  Over and Over again I think about what I want to do with my life and its always been teaching because I do love working with children. But I found that I also love being in sales/marketing.

 When I went for my interview I told my manager that I was  looking for more experience than I already had in sales. So that  I can possibly run my own business someday. Little did I know I would actually still feel that way after this career opportunity.Now that I have worked for Dish Network I know for a fact that I want my Business Certificate and will work very hard to get it. A lot of people I know can have days where they are just down on my ideas and have this way of making it seem like I am a lost cause.And  a lot of the time I have listened and I have held back from my full potential but not anymore! If their is pain in my life I will always try to smile through it and just be strong. In a world full of  weak people I believe we need strong people. Someone once told me although  I'm unsure they believe this anymore but they had said "The great thing about me is I refuse to give up on what I want" Well I really didn't think anything about that because I have a hard time accepting compliments after so many  people bringing me down. But it is true I do refuse to give up and I definitely will achieve anything I put my mind too. I do not always get what I want but I do try my best.

Anyways back to Dish Network  I shook one of the Directors of Dish Network yesterday. It was a privilege and an honor and I told him that and he said the same to me. Then he told my trainee to listen to me because I have helped the company a great deal with sales and that I am great at what I do. Only they will know whether she will  stay or go after a while but no matter what I hope whoever is in that store with that position that they don't take it for granted and cherish it as much as I have.

Training is a lot of fun it has its ups and downs. But I think the person I trained will remember what I told her I have confidence  in  her. We had been talking for weeks before she got the job and I was really excited to give her the opportunity If it doesn't work out with her I just hope she takes it as an experience and finds something else that she would love to do. Funny story: I was quizzing her on presentations and i put my hand up for a high five and she flinched like i was going to hit her we laughed so hard about it lol I would never hit a trainee lol. This wasnt my first time training I have trained people in Childrens Ministry, Cashiering, and taking care of kids at a daycare. This by far was the most challenging to me though because I only had 4 days and I had to go over a lot more information. I was joking with her at the end of the night I asked her if she wanted to give me another presentation and she said "no"  then we both laughed. Previously, I had her give me 4-8 within four days I just wanted to make sure she had the right knowledge and I felt like a friend helping her.My intentions were to make her shine and look good to the company. I was probably a little too stern at times but I also knew I could push her to her full potential and the last time I quizzed her and everything I trained her she did really well :-)

well I cant say goodbye Dish Network because who knows maybe one day I will be working for this company again. :-) So see you later Dish Network Thanks again for everything! What an amazing experience this has been! Because of you I have confidence to live up to my full potential and I know I can work hard in whatever job I get next :-) 9 more days and my new life begins :-)

2 weeks till "Magic City"

Today is 14 days away from the "Magic City" I am very excited I have missed my friends so much!!! Moberly is a small down and its not a rich town but the crime rate isnt very high,its cheaper to live, and it has 2 great colleges to attend, lots of churches and develops more and more over time. Of course moving is scary but its a risk im willing to take and with faith I believe everything will be fine. :-) Yuck Packing
:-p

Anyways, today I went to Flatirons with My uncle Steve and Aunt Natalie it was a lot of fun! I went to a place called Tavern to eat and that was some great food! I had a crab cake sandwich and some  sweet potato fries and a drink called the Chocolate Tavern It was baileys irish cream rum and chocolate tasted like a mudslide yum! then afterwards we walked  around the mall and looked at a lot of stores. :-)

Tomorrow, I get to train a new associate! Im very excited! I will train her well. I got her a journal to write notes in and some pens just to make her feel welcomed. Im sad that this job is ending but im happy that I get to give this opportunity to someone else who needs it just as desperately as I did a couple months ago. I paid it forward. Someone took a  chance on me so now its time to give someone else a chance. Im also very optimistic I will find something new in Moberly,MO.  God has blessed me with money until I do find something else and has never given me more than what I can handle.The company is trying to find out who works for Dish in Missouri to possibly get me into doing the same type of work there:-) Hopefully I can but if not God will open another door. I found confidence in this Job that I havent had for a very long time :-)

Well continue to pray for me not because things are going bad. Im really happy actually:-) Just pray that I will continue to trust Gods plan for my life and that I will not get discouraged no matter what happens. Also that I will stay put in Missouri and not move to another state again for a very long time. Thanks

Funny You tube videos Part 2 : Vintage Jesus

The Purpose of these videos is to make us aware of how some of us portray Jesus. Obviously, God isnt some mad guy telling us we are doomed but he does want us to live for him everyday :-) Hope you enjoyed these funny videos and get the point of them God Bless!

Funny You tube video Part 1 Babies vs kids

Disclaimer: These are made to show you the funniest children/babies on youtube. The following videos are not my own.

1. This is my favorite :-)

2.Ripping paper is really funny lol

3.My favorie part "Is this real life" LOL

4.The ending is my favorite part when she goes "I bet thats Justin Bieber" LOL

5. Evil eye Hilarious!

6. I love that little boys accent So cute and Funny!

7. Thats hilarious I love her explanation of how babies come if only it were true lol

8. only when he gets cookies does he love his mom lol

9. Wow dances to Beyonce lol

10.Thats Awesome! Lol Dog eats bubbles and baby laughs!

New England Patriots win against New York Jets!

Hello World, What an Amazing Football Sunday! The best game was Patriots Vs. Jets to me of Course as Patriots took over their Division :-)  AFC East! :-) Sanchez got sacked! Woot! Did you see the Interception that number 50 Nincovinch (or however you spell his name) caught and took to get another touchdown. Amazing! Fun fact: Did you know the Patriots havent lost 3 games in a row 2002-2011 :-) I really hope they make the Superbowl with the games coming up its definitely a possibility. Kansas City will be nothing Monday lol Sorry to you who loves other teams but im solely a Patriots fan :-)

Moving to the "Magic City" in 18days

Someone want to help me back? Lol I have so much to do between now and then... Thee hardest part about leaving is Dish Networ this has been the best Job ever! Unfornately, Its the only thing I really have left in Colorado. Well of course family too... But Colorado is not my home I dont feel like it ever has been. I did try my best to make a life for myself in Colorado but it hasnt worked. I didnt want to wake up 3 years later and move again after realizing that its not my home still. People say Florida is cheap to live... It may be cheaper than Colorado but its still expensive! You cant live in an apartment there unless you make 3 x your rent and a lot of people dont make that kindof money. It made me so sad seeing all those homeless people in Lakeland,FL. Florida is not a bad place but I much rather vacation there than live there. If I ever become rich I'll move back to like Orlando,FL.

Anyways, Im moving to the "Magic City" aka Moberly in 18 days. According to www.moberlymo.org Founded in 1866, Moberly’s explosive growth in 1873 earned it the title, “The Magic City.” Thats kindof disappointing I was expecting a better reason than that lol. Its all good im very excited to see all my friends. I was excited to see my friends in Colorado little did I know i am 20 mins away and noone was able to drive and see me and well I dont have a car and I just got my License. In missouri Ill definitely have all my friends in one area :-) Plus I will make some more to as there is 2 colleges there and I will either be going back to CCCB or going to MACC. Is it scary looking for another job? Yes! Definitely! But im positive I will find something! I will take anything just to not be unemployed and save more money for a car. Thank God ill have some money to live by until I get a job or else I dont think I would be moving there. I really am glad I am finally taking control of my life again :-) Well, and those of you who think Im going to fail again "You need to be more positive and encouraging" Signing off Work time new Schedule 11am-8pm :-) oo and im training someone very soon :-)

24 years old in 24 hours what will life bring?

Hope you enjoy this song its called 24 by Switchfoot :-)

Lately, Ive been thinking about all the wars,the hostility, and the ups and downs in life. Not because Ive been in a bad mood but because im a deep thinker always thinking about everything. Anyhow, my friends and I that are all in our 20s are so pressured these days to be the best. Its so easy to get caught up in what others expect. Example, Get married,Have Kids, Be in a career,Go to college etc... Where is the peace? We need peace! and if we fail to accomplish all that you expect we would like to know you will be okay. A wise friend of mine told me when growing up your family supports what your doing and will try and help you but once you turn 18 they leave you alone. And your left to fight all the battles alone without the support of your family and all you hear is what they expect out of you. But your friends turn into your family they encourage you and support you and no matter what your decisions are.I really think that a lot of families try to fix each other. When at any  point is it our job to try and fix eachother? God is the only fixer the rest of us need to back off and just help eachother without worrying about the fixing.When im stressed out or having a bad day people will ask me "How can I help? " my response "just pray for me,thank you". Prayer is the best thing we can do to help eachother that way God can intervene and take control of the bad and the good things going on. So much time is wasted on trying to fix eachother and not enough time helping. Lets help!

Im 24 years old in 24 hours what will life bring ? I dont know but I do know God does and he will be there so lets try to focus on the fact that we are not in control God is. Hallelujah!

Colossians 2:8

New Century Version (NCV)

⁸ Be sure that no one leads you away with false and empty teaching that is only human, which comes from the ruling spirits of this world, and not from Christ.

Phillipians 2:5-8 (NCV)

⁵ In your lives you must think and act like Christ Jesus.
⁶ Christ himself was like God in everything.
But he did not think that being equal with God was something to be used for his own benefit.
⁷ But he gave up his place with God and made himself nothing.
He was born as a man
and became like a servant.
⁸ And when he was living as a man,
he humbled himself and was fully obedient to God,
even when that caused his death—death on a cross.

Psalm 121

New Century Version (NCV)

Psalm 121

The Lord Guards His People

A song for going up to worship.

¹ I look up to the hills,
but where does my help come from?
² My help comes from the Lord,
who made heaven and earth.

³ He will not let you be defeated.
He who guards you never sleeps.
⁴ He who guards Israel
never rests or sleeps.
⁵ The Lord guards you.
The Lord is the shade that protects you from the sun.
⁶ The sun cannot hurt you during the day,
and the moon cannot hurt you at night.
⁷ The Lord will protect you from all dangers;
he will guard your life.
⁸ The Lord will guard you as you come and go,
both now and forever.

Seriously Guy? What were you thinking?

Dear guy,

You left your three year old little girl in your car unattended while you came in the store and you were in the store for 10 mins before a woman came in panicking about a baby being left unattended in the car. We looked around the store , while looking out the window making sure the little girl was okay. I bet she was scared :-(  When we had found you ; you said "I left her in the car because she was crying" SERIOUSLY GUY??? WHAT WERE YOU THINKING??? Granted when we had asked you if the kid was yours you went to your car and brought her inside but what if that woman never came in the store panicking? Your three year old daughter could of left the car and ran off or she could have been snatched from the car :-( I know you probably wont see this blog ever... But I really hope you will never leave your three year old girl unattended again! A child is a gift from God and not a problem and if she was crying you could of came back later  or brought her in. It's not like other children dont come in the store crying. Kids can have bad days too but at the end of the day they are a gift!

Im praying for you,

Jessica

It makes me so sad that their are parents out there that think of themselves first and their kids second. Now I dont know if that guy is a bad father he may even be good father but no babies should be left in the car unattended. People are sick in the world and we cant trust that someone wont do something. I probably care more than other people on issues like this but its because I can relate I was always second place to my parents. I love them and forgive them now but its the truth and neither one of them would deny it. I really use my past to help others and in helping others I help myself.

Tip: Please , if you have children  or are planning on having children think of them before yourself.

Thanks

Woke up talked to a bill collector. So annoying!

I owe money to an unemployment claim with my previous employer. They put me through so much it is unfair of them to give me unemployment then ask for it back. I got a letter in the mail last May saying the date it was mailed no where on it did it say bill due on that day. But now im stuck with this bill being more expensive then when it started.

 All of you know I moving November 30th and Im still glad that  I am. but im scared of the unknown. I hope that I can find a job fast so I can get a car. Ive got my license all I need now is another job in Moberly and money for a car.

Im trying to not let anything bring me down but the Devil is putting so many obstacles in my way that sometimes its hard not to feel defeated.

This move is a lot of faith that I can pull all my resources together and get another degree/ finish the one i started. Getting a new job and moving out on my own. God Bless The Jones family Ashley and steve as they are going to allow me to be their roommate until i get on my feet. Im going to pay them of course. I would never live off them. My aunt and uncle have allowed me to live with them rent free and im very grateful but now its time for me to live on my own again not because they want me gone but because im 24 and I need to be on my own again. like I was in florida and missouri when I had my own roommates and lived on my own.

New Hair, New Shoes ,and Finally a Drivers License

Like My hair got it fixed :-)

 Love these shoes so comfy!

Finally my Drivers License!!! :-)

To all of you, who didnt believe  I could get my license...I DID IT :-)

Its been a great day and im very thankful for today as I achieved something that Ive wanted for a very very very long time. I dont mean to brag but I just never thought I would have my license. I have a habit of believing others that have told me I'll never do it. Or be good enough. I finally feel the satisfaction of having a license. I try to always rise above the negativity I hear and thats totally what I did today :-) Thanks to my Aunt Natalie and Uncle Steve who spent lots of time helping me with my driving :-). I just cant stop smiling :-) .Ive been telling my friends when i get another job in Moberly i will buy a car but that was just wishful thinking now its not. I feel like im finally gaining back myself that has been lost for so long and im feeling more confident by the day.  Just yesterday  I was frustrated about my hair, and scared about my test but today It came to a hauly as God blessed me indeed.

I hope you had a great day too :-)

Smart Style more like Dumb Style

Hello,

Lately, im frustrated  about my hair. I went to a place that promised to give me a smart style. Instead they gave me a dumb style. The lady  that was cutting my hair wasnt in a very good mood and I asked her how long she been cutting hair because I ask all stylists that. She said she had been cutting hair for 10 years. Well when she had finished layering my hair my aunt noticed that it was uneven in the back  and my bangs were too long still. I asked for sideward bangs and she made them all one length and extremely short the second time. and when she evened my bottom layers she didnt fix the other layers. I didnt notice until I got home but my hair has a 2 inch difference between layers. :-( 10 years! yeah right! If she has been cutting hair that long then she should know how to layer someones hair.Oy vey! I will never go back to that hair cut place again. Well if you do... good luck!

Tomorrow im going to a beauty school wich is what I should of done in the first place they have less experience but they do a better job and they actually communicate what they are doing... Not like the hair place I went to.

Today I feel ugly because my hair is ugly. Im sure you can relate if you have ever had a bad hair cut. Well I'll turn my frown upside down. I'll put my hair up and think about getting it fixed tomorrow .

Ps. My second driving test is tomorrow please pray I get it. Or else i have to wait until Missouri and learn how to paralell park :p

Ticking Clock

Inside my head, their is a ticking clock. It wont SHUT UP! I have all the time in the world;yet I always act as if I dont. Lately, I cant sleep because my brain wont shut off as I am anxious to get all this stuff accomplished.

In fact, heres a list of stuff on my mind as I type this Blog:

1. Spend time with family before I leave for Moberly,MO and make sure they know I love them
2. Make sure my uncle is okay everyday. Since he is recovering from surgery.
3. I wonderwho emailed me or if any jobs are going to email me soon.
4. Jobs to apply for in Moberly,MO
5. Packing for Moberly and when to do it
6. Preparing for my "second chance" driving test(note to self if snowing drive slower turn slower)
7. What so I need to save what do I have to spend
8. How can I get my next degree?
9. Calling places like Bank of America and colleges to set up appointments.
10. Figuring out when to exercise
11. When to weigh in at library
12. Hoping the patriots will win more games
13. How not to screw up in Missouri
14. My future church
15. Getting back into ministry
16. Hoping my friends and family are okay. If not, How can I help
17. My schedule for the week
18. How to mend bridges in my broken reltionships
19. How to fit God into everything
20. How to make the last 2 weeks of work successful with sales
21. The song in my head
22. My future husband and kids
23. Future Career,Car, and Place of my own
24. How to have more fun

See! Brain SHUT UP!lol

Well, today is my day off and im so glad it has been a long week at work. I love my job but im glad I get a break. So I can relax and get some of the stuff on my brainn done like job hunting, Cleaning,Packing, going to the library,exercising,reading etc...

New again to Blogging :-)

Hello World,

Its Me Jessica! Remember me? I dont know sometimes I wonder if im remembered at all. Its easy to feel misplaced somedays. Honestly, I've always been somewhat invisible by choice. I just dont want to be the center of the universe. I know too many people like that and I just dont know if their fitting God into the selfcenterness.

 Anyways, Im on the move again. I think im a professional mover lol at least im not a professional loser lol. Moberly,MO has so much opportunity;  I have neglected. Honestly, I feel like I have been vacationing away from Moberly for almost 4 years. Moberly really was home to me but I took CCCB for granted and I went to go live on my own and settled for an Associates when I really should have stayed on campus and finished my Bachelors. I was robbed when i lived in my first apartment  my last semester of college. That scared me to no end and so I Isolated myself from pretty much all of my friends . They were my family and I couldnt trust them.

Today I realize what a mistake it was to turn my back on all of them and also have realized that I need to stop settling for less than what im capable of. Im going to further my education and never turn my back on my best friends my other family again :-)

Well I need to go to work! I love my job I would take it with me if I could but I cant and I know their will be another great opportunity like Dish Network.

Hope you enjoyed my Blog

Sincerly,

Jessica