Jesus paid it all
All to him I owe
Sin had left a crimson stain
He washed it white as snow!
Those lyrics are so beautiful!
The other day I was talking with someone who is suppose to be there for me... But they cant seem to let the past go... They were very discouraging with plans I have for my life because of my past. I have things in my past that I have had to deal with every single day of my life. There are things I am still working on and will always be a progress. It has not been an easy road but I take delight in knowing that God is not holding me as a prisoner of my past sins. He took my past sins upon him and I am the one who has been punishing myself... Until this last Christmas when I stepped outside away from any and every distraction and came forth to God about everything I have been feeling. Yes, he already knows whats on my heart but it really helped me to voice things out to him. I really changed that night and since then I have not been penalizing myself for my past. I have changed and grown up so much in the past month even. This Job has been challenging to say the least but it is worth it because I am responsible for more than myself and I am getting trained on how to handle difficult situations through the teens I get to work for.
This may sound harsh but If you cannot focus on who I am today and get to know me for the present time instead of just my past sins then GET LOST! I don't need someone in my life today who will never look past my past sins. Forgiveness may not be in your blood but I have a Jesus who forgives me and that is enough for now on.
My last blog was almost a month ago... Sorry lol My life has been like a roll a coaster it has had some ups and downs and I have been extremely busy with adapting to my new job and my roommates and I have been sick (By the way my roommates are awesome and I don't understand how some people could treat them so poorly. I wish more people in the world were like Ashley and Steve they are always there for people who need there help.)
I have been frustrated some lately with some stuff lately most of it i am unable to talk about due to Confidentiality stuff but what I can tell you is I am looking for a second job to be able to move out. I love my roommates but I want to be able to achieve getting into my own place again and saving up for a car and things. I was hoping to by April for a goal but I really cant afford it without some extra income.So instead of forming a deadline to move out I am reaching towards that goal and it is eliminating some stress in my life. The most amazing part of my life is that God has seen me through everything and when I go through hardships I see God molding me into a better person. I am weak but with him he makes me stronger. With God I know I can do all things.I still have flaws but I do not believe that because of my flaws that I am incapable of helping others. God can use our pain to help others. However, dont be a hypocrite about things if you are doing something like drinking don't witness to others about not drinking....
Please remember before you judge me or anyone else to look at their present life instead of just looking at the sin from their past life.
