Im back in the "Magic City" AKA Moberly

My day started at 7 am this morning! :p I was pretty tired from not  sleeping the night before... I got something like 4 hours. I am  so clumsy when I it comes to mornings lol I tripped over my suitcases 5 times today I spilled my soda 2 times  on the plane and I kept running into walls ,chairs etc... throughout the day.Life is funny huh? you get a great idea and you run with it but sometimes that idea becomes you because you fear that what your thinking is nothing more than an idea. This move is great but its had its challenges of going through the motions of what happened in the place you had been living. I did want Colorado to work but no matter how much I tried it wasnt for me. I was lonely and by the time I got my job it just wasnt enough to stay anymore and it felt like a strange land to me when I went back to live there. My immediate family was gone and my brother Tim was too far away along with my friends in Colorado.

Sure I could of stayed and got a car but I still couldnt handle being in Colorado anymore without my other family and it was too pricey. And honestly with all the bad memories I have there it was like going back to my past;Instead of moving forward. I also realized that if I was miserable I was doomed to make others miserable as well and thats the last thing I wanted. My family is also not as close as they were. Or maybe we have never been close and I finally just realized it.   People can call this move running until they are blue in the face but the truth is...

When I moved to:

• Missouri the first time it was to move forward and get a college degree.
• Florida was because College was done and I was invited to live there with my brother and sis in law
• Back to Colorado because I was almost homeless and I thought I could change my past and make Colorado my home but it never was. .
• Back to Moberly Because I regret not coming back sooner when I have regretted leaving since the day I left. 

While I sat on that plane I cried. I thought about all the times I have sinned in my life and I felt ashamed. I know my actions and words and things have hurt God and it makes me sick to know I have sinned without considering him. I finally felt the pain of all my sin and it was killing me inside. I know I will never be perfect but I really do want to do better because I know I'm capable of better.  After a few mins of crying I said a prayer  about this move and then opened my book and started reading.  When I got off the plane I got lost on my way to the MOX bus and then I found it. I tried to sleep on the bus but it was too "Bumpy" so I read some Psalms and prayed some more and listened to some music and the first song that came on was "Its my Life" by Bon Jovi :-) That song is so true! I am posting that song at the end of my blog for your enjoyment :-)

When I got to the Columbia Mall I waited for Lauren,Ashley and Brittany I walked around the food court with my luggage and I had talked with a couple of people that decided to talk with me and they both told me they hate Missouri lol. Well when my friends got to the mall I saw Lauren first and i ran up to her and gave her hug then she handed me the key to my new home :-). We then got in Ash Ash's fabulous Nice car! We all went to Fudruckers Ive been wanting to eat there for months :) so yummy! After dinner we went to Wal-Mart in Moberly and I got some stuff. During the whole night I had fun conversations with Ash and Lauren and Brittany. Well Brittany cant talk right now but she is Awesome and friendly and im glad I know her.

My new home with Ash and Steve and Brittany is Amazing! I fell in love with it and their Dog Cady . Since I have been home I have been hanging out with Brittany and Ash Ash and another Ashley that I know that came for a visit waiting for Steve-O to come home. When he came home it was so nice to see him again too. Nice to have my other family back:-)

 So glad im back here! Tomorrow will be another fun day with a christmas showcase downtown and hanging out with Lauren. :-)

 Sure the job thing is scary but God has a plan and im going to keep searching for a job! I'm giving it all to God :-)