Dare2Share 2013

I know this blog is late but I wanted to tell you about Dare 2. Share. I went to St. Louis with FBC Moberly,MO with the youth group. I was in charge of 8 girls. It was a positive experience getting to hang out with them and learnt more about them. I am still amazed that God can use me in this way to teach the youth about him. This was my first year at D2S and I loved it. They really made teens think about how they see their lives and how to share the Gospel with others. My favorite parts were: 1. The drama: it was on bullying a guy and his friends bully another Guy on the wrestling team. Well one day the guy goes to the optometrist and has to get glasses. Only they aren't normal glasses. When the guy puts them on he sees the guy he bullies getting beat up by the coach and so he sees and feels how it is like to be bullied. He tried to go return the glasses but their was no optical place there. So he goes and learns about Jesus and turns from bullying. Then puts the glasses back on and sees that the guy he once bullied is bringing a Gun to school to shoot others then himself. He meets up with him at the school and talks him into giving him his gun and gives him the glasses. So the bully surrendered himself and shares about Jesus to the kid who was getting bullied and the kid that got bullied got a second chance. 2. The Propaganda poem. He teaches the Gospel. 3. Obviously the fellowship with the youth group. 4. Watching my youth group befriend other youth groups and 5. Watching my teen girls tell a complete stranger God Bless. I saw a lot of strangers smile.

At the end of our time at Dare 2 Share the teens were encouraged to ask a friend what their life meant to them in 6 words and then later at church was given a "Life in 6 words" book and those books teach about the Gospel.

So for those of you reading this blog. What 6 words would you use to describe your life?

Day 3 of a healthier lifestyle

I have called this a diet but really I am trying to live healthier and stay that way. It is definitely not easy. I have not had a soda since Thursday. I don't  miss it so  because I normally had a stomach ache afterwards but it did help my migraines .

Anyhow, today was the first time i have done Turbo Jam in a while and it  was extremely hard but I kept up with it though and I have that burn feeling you get after a heavy workout. I did cardio party and it was 45 mins long. Now it just needs to warm up outside so on  days that I get off at noon or the days that I'm off I can go for my 5-14 mile walks that I use to do in Firestone Colorado and in Florida.Oh and I had Chinese today but I only had 1 plate and I limited my portions plus I had fruit and veggies and I didn't drink soda I had water and hot tea.

Looking in the mirror is a real challenge for me but I am working on it. Working out and eating right helps every area of my life.

Water by the way tastes great but it has to be purified for me to drink it or I won't drink it at all. Friday I drank 32 ounces at work and about 18 at home yesterday I drank 35 at work and 20 at home. Today I have had 24 so far but I plan to drink at least 20 more before I go to bed.

For breakfast and when I'm on the go at work I have a smoothie or protein shake. And I don't eat bread and everything else I cut my portions in half.

If I look like I'm sick or too obsessed with this healthy plan please talk with me because I can go overboard. Thanks :-)

I am looking up a outfit or dress to buy at the 25 lb,50lb,75 lb,100lb mark as a motivation tool.

I am not a morning person...Worst ever!

The night before I set 3-6 alarms because I know I will procrastinate getting out of bed. When I first wake up I go to the restroom to look in the mirror to see how tired I look. It is a good morning if I don't run into anything lol. Most of the time though I run into at least one thing now I may make it through my house clutz free but theirs always walls I somehow manage to run into at work. For the past 3 weeks I have been in charge of opening the store 3 times a week. I like that shift because I'm off at noon but I am not a morning person. I am still pleasent in the morning I'm just ditzy and think about sleep a lot. Everything that I do in the morning seems to be at a slower pace and Im usaully pretty fast. It takes me 15 mins from my alarm going off to get out of bed 5-10 mins to brush my teeth another 20-40 to get ready and it leaves me with 2-5 minutes to eat before I head out of the door. Oh  and usually I go on a quest to find my keys before I head to work. Mornings suck! I now get up at 4am 3 days a week and 8 am is the new sleep in time on ther days lol. I probably should go to bed earlier at night but I like getting on Facebook pinterest etc. :-p. What do you expect I was born in the middle of the night lol.

Over analyzing,overthinking and overreacting

Over-analyzing,Over-thinking and Over-reacting. The 3 O's that describe me well. I over analyze situations a lot more than I thought I did. It has been pointed out to me in every area of my life. First, I over - analyze the situations for example feeling ignored may have me try to figure out what I did wrong for hours, then I overthink the situation when It was not that I was being ignored people were just busy.

' The last O over reacting sometimes I still do but it is a lot less then I use to. I use to take everything personal if someone didn't like me it bothered me more then it should have .

Also, the 3 O's happen when I make a mistake I worry about the possible consequences of that mistake and I worry about how my mistake will effect others.

So how do I cure these 3 O's I pray to God, seek his will, read the bible, and I do what my boyfriend always tells Me to do "Relax". I think sometimes I care too much and then the 3 O's come out and it can make me look like I am an uptight person and it stresses others out plus in the past I have over analyzed,Over-thought, and overthinked things so much that I have pushed others away.

Do you have any problems with the 3 O's if so then pray and relax. :-)

Tell the negative committee that meets inside your head to sit down and shut up!- love that quote its so true we got to change our negative thoughts to positive thoughts.

Sunshine

Today I was given the nickname "sunshine" from one of my managers I asked why and was told its because I'm always smiling and this morning when they came in the sun was shining bright and I was smiling. I do admit when I am not at work it is hard to smile. But ever since I started working in retail again it has made me feel a lot happier the I have felt in a long time. I really like working with the general public.

Sometimes I do fake it but most of the time lately I am "sunshine".I hope my friends see the change in attitude since I have switched jobs . I am always striving to be positively but I know I'm not perfect and some days can be very discouraging but I make it through. I may not be a millionaire or popular or have a cure for something or be fit but I have: a home,food,friends,awesome youth group, church, family and a God who created me in his image so that I would go on and be a disciple and go and make more disciples.

I have  more than that to brag about but I bet you would get bored with this blog. The point is I am fortunate to have these things when many do not. And given a nickname like "sunshine" brightens up my day.

An update

So what has happened within the last several  months that I didn't blog? A short recap...May2012-I went to work and celebrated my friend Ashley's birthday and also wished my dad one and I was fully moved into my apartment. June 2012- I went to work, celebrated my birthday,helped with Children's camp Cedarcrest and VBS(June was a really good month) July- I worked on 4th of July I did see some fireworks but from a far distance which I guess was better than going to Rothwell because a baby got hurt when someone decided it was a good idea to bring their own fireworks and shoot them off in a crowd(Smh) August- I worked and started helping  out with the youth. Or was it July?? September- I don't remember all that well...I worked a lot. October- I went to say goodbye to my Grandma it was really hard the worse heartache in a long time. I Was glad to see my sister and my some other family though. And I got to meet my sisters New Boyfriend. She did well he was a nice guy. When I was in Colorado for 4 days and broke down over Grandma dying I walked toward the mountains and soothed myself. November 11th My whole world fell apart as I got a phone call that my Grandma had passed. She didn't talk to anyone before she died and I know its because she couldn't stand for anybody to see her like that. My Grandma was the best she always took care of others even those she hardly knew. She is still missed to this day but It is my hope to still follow her legacy in caring for others. I worked on Thanksgiving.Oh and I finished one semester of business and office technology but after one semester I decided that online school would be better at least I have 9 more credits then I did.:-) December- I worked and worked on Christmas. I did have a nice Christmas breakfast with friends though. January- I was happy to say goodbye to 2012 and celebrated New Years Eve with friends. (We all had trouble keeping our eyes open to ring in the new year lol) .. Also I was working 2 jobs as I started working at Get it and Go. I quit Stubbins at the end of January  because of things going great at the store and because I was pretty miserable working at Stubbins over that whole year I tried to make a difference and it failed. However, one teen there I do believe I helped though and well I could go on and on about why I quit but I won't because of HIPPEA laws and well I wouldn't anyways because Im not out to ruin CFMAs name. February -I filled taxes and got use to working one job. And well I felt like I got my life back. Valentine's day was hard though. My grandma use to send me a Valentine's card. Anyways, now its March so far so good I have been working,helping with the youth,and hanging with friends. I have the best friends in the world! God has definitely blessed me with another job,a good home and great friends.The Frankes moved which was sad but I know we are still friends :-). Well that's it for now even though my grammar stinks and I am typing from my phone I hope you enjoyed getting updated. I will blog more later.

Blogging again!

Im going to start blogging again real soon.(If my phone cooperates). If not, I will blog when I can from the Library. So keep an eye on it! Sorry its been so long. Life has been really busy. I look forward to blogging again to keep you all posted on things going on :-)

Update!

I have been extremely busy with work and preparing for my move and prepping for college round 2.I have a lot of overtime some pay periods which definitely helps.

So far I have bought dishes,furniture,tv,dvd player,dining room table with  chairs and wall decor all for about 162 all together! I'm buying little by little when I can afford it:-) 

I will be doing some DIY projects around my apartment just with pieces of wood etc... to make the apartment look more updated.

So, I called my landlord yesterday and she said she has had some family emergencies in the last month and has forgotten that my move out day is May 1st . I asked her if it would be ready and she told me she was not sure and that I may not be able to move in May 1st. She also told me they will be cleaning it this weekend. I understand but  this does frustrate me some  because I paid my deposit at the end of March so they have had plenty of time to clean it... I understand about the family emergencies but to tell me I may not to move in May 1st is absurd! Hopefully, she will be able to let me especially because I asked off for May 1st to move...

The Apartment is a Large 1 bedroom apartment with white carpet with brown mixed in and hardwood floor and the kitchen has light blue/gray counters its very pretty! the bathroom is off to the right side of the kitchen. The walls are a tan brown I think throughout lol I also have at the entrance a dining area  at the end of the hall their is a beautiful white china cabinet!I have a decent size living room and bedroom and I have 2 patios the one in the front is covered but the one in the back is screened off I am going to use the screened off one in the back for storage and I may eventually put a patio table out there. Oh and the apartment is on the bottom! A huge bonus for me because I hate having to move stuff up and down stairs. Its a house that has 3 separate apartments. I have 2 apartments above me one is an efficiency and one is a 1 bedroom apartment. My Favorite part about my apartment is: The Kitchen! because of the hard wood floor and the space. Least Favorite: My Bathroom it is very small and the shower is a standard not to mention I dont like that its in the kitchen lol. Their is no bathtub but that doesn't really bug me because I don't take baths anyhow. The Location is down the street from where I live now in Moberly,MO which is a great location and can easily walk to work.

My other big news is that I am going back to college this Fall for my Office and Administration Business Certificate! I will be attending MACC. I have dreams to run my own Anti-Fraud business but that is still up in the air at this point. My COMPASS test is on June 2nd. I have to make it up to MACC sometime in the next few weeks to discuss my credit transfers the business certificate etc... I was going to today but I went to garage sales instead. The only thing I am going to buy now is food to last me till pay day and some dirt cheap cleaning stuff from the dollar store and a cheap frying pan to make stuff in. After I pay rent that is what I will be able to afford until payday.

True story I went and bought a Microwave today and the guy had showed me that it worked but I didn't see the inside and go in behold it was filth! Tomorrow I am getting my 10 dollars back and giving the microwave back.The lady I talked to about it said it was almost brand new. Apparently, she thought her boyfriend was giving me a different one.This microwave was so disgusting that even bleach and vinegar wouldn't clean it!and when I get paid in May I will just have to buy my own Microwave from the store! I am going to have nightmares about this Microwave... Okay , that is an over exaggeration but still! Yuck!!!

Please keep me in prayer : First of all, I would like to say God is good and life is good even with obstacles. Anyways, Finances are rough as Stubbins is only part time and I don't always get full time hours. This next paycheck will only be 3 hundred and something? and I am looking forward to living alone but I am a little scared to be living alone again. Thank God I have friends around this time :-) I also need prayer for going back to school that I will have the knowledge to see this Certificate through and that someday I meet my future husband I haven't had a boyfriend in almost a year and I haven't dated anyone going on 5 months now. I haven't really been searching hard but I do know I do not want to be an old cat lady!

 The Only photo I have so far of the inside. . This is a small piece of the Kitchen I love!.

I'll Fly Away

Some glad morning when this life is o'er,
I'll fly away.

First line says it all! 

Life has been crazy  lately... This has not been the best week for me. I cannot talk about any of it but lets just say I had my last straw today when I realized that not even television could  distract me from this past week .Especially, when I had to deal with some more stuff today. 

 Anyways, when I reached my breaking point I couldn't get to my room fast enough. I knew what I needed to do... I needed to calm down and shut the world out and just focus on prayer and music.  It really did help to just talk to God because really who can understand me like him? No one can.  The music that I listened to today I often listen to when I am upset and it is: " Will you be there By Skillet", "Breathe  you in Thousand Foot Krutch" and "Everything by Lifehouse". 

After I got out of my room, I had some coffee and then joked on my facebook status saying "no one talk to me until I have had my coffee" but strange enough coffee did help me.

Please If you have a few seconds in your day please pray for me. I have some unspoken prayer requests. 

Do you have prayer requests? 

Did you have a hard week? Are you on your last straw at times? 

If so, I encourage you to take a moment and pray and just listen to some encouraging music.  Maybe you arent on your last straw... and you just need a time out and do that regardless I don't know where you stand with God but he does and he is wanting all of us.