Update!

I have been extremely busy with work and preparing for my move and prepping for college round 2.I have a lot of overtime some pay periods which definitely helps.

So far I have bought dishes,furniture,tv,dvd player,dining room table with  chairs and wall decor all for about 162 all together! I'm buying little by little when I can afford it:-) 

I will be doing some DIY projects around my apartment just with pieces of wood etc... to make the apartment look more updated.

So, I called my landlord yesterday and she said she has had some family emergencies in the last month and has forgotten that my move out day is May 1st . I asked her if it would be ready and she told me she was not sure and that I may not be able to move in May 1st. She also told me they will be cleaning it this weekend. I understand but  this does frustrate me some  because I paid my deposit at the end of March so they have had plenty of time to clean it... I understand about the family emergencies but to tell me I may not to move in May 1st is absurd! Hopefully, she will be able to let me especially because I asked off for May 1st to move...

The Apartment is a Large 1 bedroom apartment with white carpet with brown mixed in and hardwood floor and the kitchen has light blue/gray counters its very pretty! the bathroom is off to the right side of the kitchen. The walls are a tan brown I think throughout lol I also have at the entrance a dining area  at the end of the hall their is a beautiful white china cabinet!I have a decent size living room and bedroom and I have 2 patios the one in the front is covered but the one in the back is screened off I am going to use the screened off one in the back for storage and I may eventually put a patio table out there. Oh and the apartment is on the bottom! A huge bonus for me because I hate having to move stuff up and down stairs. Its a house that has 3 separate apartments. I have 2 apartments above me one is an efficiency and one is a 1 bedroom apartment. My Favorite part about my apartment is: The Kitchen! because of the hard wood floor and the space. Least Favorite: My Bathroom it is very small and the shower is a standard not to mention I dont like that its in the kitchen lol. Their is no bathtub but that doesn't really bug me because I don't take baths anyhow. The Location is down the street from where I live now in Moberly,MO which is a great location and can easily walk to work.

My other big news is that I am going back to college this Fall for my Office and Administration Business Certificate! I will be attending MACC. I have dreams to run my own Anti-Fraud business but that is still up in the air at this point. My COMPASS test is on June 2nd. I have to make it up to MACC sometime in the next few weeks to discuss my credit transfers the business certificate etc... I was going to today but I went to garage sales instead. The only thing I am going to buy now is food to last me till pay day and some dirt cheap cleaning stuff from the dollar store and a cheap frying pan to make stuff in. After I pay rent that is what I will be able to afford until payday.

True story I went and bought a Microwave today and the guy had showed me that it worked but I didn't see the inside and go in behold it was filth! Tomorrow I am getting my 10 dollars back and giving the microwave back.The lady I talked to about it said it was almost brand new. Apparently, she thought her boyfriend was giving me a different one.This microwave was so disgusting that even bleach and vinegar wouldn't clean it!and when I get paid in May I will just have to buy my own Microwave from the store! I am going to have nightmares about this Microwave... Okay , that is an over exaggeration but still! Yuck!!!

Please keep me in prayer : First of all, I would like to say God is good and life is good even with obstacles. Anyways, Finances are rough as Stubbins is only part time and I don't always get full time hours. This next paycheck will only be 3 hundred and something? and I am looking forward to living alone but I am a little scared to be living alone again. Thank God I have friends around this time :-) I also need prayer for going back to school that I will have the knowledge to see this Certificate through and that someday I meet my future husband I haven't had a boyfriend in almost a year and I haven't dated anyone going on 5 months now. I haven't really been searching hard but I do know I do not want to be an old cat lady!

 The Only photo I have so far of the inside. . This is a small piece of the Kitchen I love!.

I'll Fly Away

Some glad morning when this life is o'er,
I'll fly away.

First line says it all! 

Life has been crazy  lately... This has not been the best week for me. I cannot talk about any of it but lets just say I had my last straw today when I realized that not even television could  distract me from this past week .Especially, when I had to deal with some more stuff today. 

 Anyways, when I reached my breaking point I couldn't get to my room fast enough. I knew what I needed to do... I needed to calm down and shut the world out and just focus on prayer and music.  It really did help to just talk to God because really who can understand me like him? No one can.  The music that I listened to today I often listen to when I am upset and it is: " Will you be there By Skillet", "Breathe  you in Thousand Foot Krutch" and "Everything by Lifehouse". 

After I got out of my room, I had some coffee and then joked on my facebook status saying "no one talk to me until I have had my coffee" but strange enough coffee did help me.

Please If you have a few seconds in your day please pray for me. I have some unspoken prayer requests. 

Do you have prayer requests? 

Did you have a hard week? Are you on your last straw at times? 

If so, I encourage you to take a moment and pray and just listen to some encouraging music.  Maybe you arent on your last straw... and you just need a time out and do that regardless I don't know where you stand with God but he does and he is wanting all of us.

Sin had left a crimson stain, He washed it white as snow

Jesus paid it all

All to him I owe

Sin had left a crimson stain

He washed it white as snow!

Those lyrics are so beautiful!

The other day I was talking with someone who is suppose to be there for me... But they cant seem to let the past go... They were very discouraging with plans I have for my life because of my past. I have things in my past that I have had to deal with every single day of my life. There are things I am still working on and will always be a progress. It has not been an easy road but I take delight in knowing that God is not holding me as a prisoner of my past sins. He took my past sins upon him and I am the one who has been punishing myself... Until this last Christmas when I stepped outside away from any and every distraction and came forth to God about everything I have been feeling. Yes, he already knows whats on my heart but it really helped me to voice things out to him. I really changed that night and since then I have not been penalizing myself for my past. I have changed and grown up so much in the past month even. This Job has been challenging to say the least but it is worth it because I am responsible for more than myself and I am getting trained on how to handle difficult situations through the teens I get to work for. 

This may sound harsh but If you cannot focus on who I am today and get to know me for the present time instead of just my past sins  then GET LOST! I don't need someone in my life today who will never look past my past sins. Forgiveness may not be in your blood but I have a Jesus who forgives me and that is enough for now on.

My last blog was almost a month ago... Sorry lol My life has been like a roll a coaster it has had some ups and downs and I have been extremely busy with  adapting to my new job and my roommates and I have been sick (By the way my roommates are awesome and I don't understand how some people could treat them so poorly. I wish more people in the world were like Ashley and Steve they are always there for people who need there help.) 

I have been frustrated some lately with some stuff lately most of it i am unable to talk about due to Confidentiality stuff but what I can tell you is I am looking for a second job to be able to move out. I love my roommates but I want to be able to achieve getting into my own place again and saving up for a car and things. I was hoping to by April for a goal but I really cant afford it without some extra income.So instead of forming a deadline to move out I am reaching towards that goal and it is eliminating some stress in my life.   The most amazing part of my life is that God has seen me through everything and when I go through hardships I see God molding me into a better person. I am weak but with him he makes me stronger. With God I know I can do all things.I still have flaws but I do not believe that because of my flaws that I am incapable of helping others. God can use our pain to help others. However, dont be a hypocrite about things if you are doing something like drinking don't witness to others about not drinking....

Please remember before you judge me or anyone else to look at their present life instead of just looking at the sin from their past life. 

Open doors

Working with Children's Foundation its formerly named Stubbins but switched it to just Children's Foundation Moberly site. I cant even begin to describe what an incredible opportunity this is.  I really cant! I am so amazed by this door that was opened for me! For those of you who don't know the type of work I do; I get to work at a youth center. The residents and other staff seriously feel like family. This is more to me than some paycheck. Although, some days I do freak out over money I remember that God will not give me more than I can handle. After tomorrow I shall know my schedule more though so I can try to fit in a second job. 

When talking about about "Open doors" I am talking about the ones God opens for you.  Last week I got one job. I thought this line of work had been closed for me. My last semester at CCCB in 2007 I had made plans to work as a house parent at a Children's home. Then my plans crumbled when I found out that I had to be married. So then, I just accepted one dead end job after another. Just trying to survive in this economy like everyone else.  I still felt a tug on my heartstrings in what I wanted to do to make a difference even when I worked at crumby places. My whole life I have wanted to do something to make a difference in either Chilldren or Youth. It is not an easy field but it is one of the most rewarding. It isn't even about me it is about them and how to help them.  When you seek God you will find him and I know that I was definitely knocking on his door. No guarantees but I knew that I needed to knock. He has given me more than I deserve and I am so grateful that it was this door that was opened.

What doors do you need opened? What doors has he opened for you?  Remember this verse: 

Matthew 7:7

New Century Version (NCV)

⁷ "Ask, and God will give to you. Search, and you will find. Knock, and the door will open for you. 

 

 

Busy Bee

I have been a Busy Bee! 

Monday, I got a rewarding job! I do say rewarding because it meets one of my goals in life. Which is to make a difference in the life of our Children/Youth. It is a parttime job but I know that I can eventually get another parttime job or a fulltime job and this is a start. 

Backing up a day earlier from Monday. Sunday! Sunday I was at worlds end I was tired,depressed,hungry, and worried . I really couldnt stand being around people and I had gone to church feeling hopeful that I would get some wisdom from learning. I did but it still didnt help the mood I was in. When I wasnt in my church I was in my room balling my eyes out while: praying and reading. I was also fasting so I had hardly any energy to do anything. The day was a disaster!

Back to Monday I set out to go job hunting at 830 am and it was extremely hard because I still hadnt ate anything and the weather was freezing. I began to panick a few of the places I wanted to apply to were not open yet. I got a call after getting an email about a possible Job opportunity. I gave the person my phone number but I was not expecting a phone call. That phone call was the start of a great week! I went in and got interviewed and when I left I got called with the Job offer right away. I definitely believe in fasting and I definitely believe that it was my fasting and prayer that helped me get this Job. I never lost my faith I was just really discouraged and all I wanted to do is sleep but instead I kept going and seeking God's wisdom. I am far from perfect I have a lot of flaws but God uses my weaknesses and in him I am strong. When I pray for my attitude to change it definitely does too. 

Today, I filled out a bunch of paperwork. I pretty much gave my whole life story :p but it was so worth it. I keep thinking about the youth I get to influence. I know it will not be an easy task all the time but I know I can handle it and I know I will give 100%. Im not sure when I start I do know I start soon though.  

I need a second job so that I can: Save for a car,Move into my own place, Get a Missouri license, Contacts etc...  Please pray for my second job I have a few prospects but im still applying everywhere. Thank you!

WOO HOO I got a JOB!!! :-)

How well do you know me the Results :-)

1. How many Siblings do I have? 2 brothers 1sister and 1 sister in law

2. How many times have I been in love? Once

3. Whats my favorite holiday? 4th of July

4.  Whats my biggest fear? Becoming Homeless

5. My favorite zoo animal? Hippo

6. What is my favorite exercise machine? Elliptical

7. In High School I had 4 accomplishments what were they? Diploma, Advanced Choirs,English Excellence Award, Honor roll for 11th and 12th grade

8. What state do I want to visit the most? California

9. Who is my favorite author? Max Lucado

10. What is my favorite color? Baby Blue

 

 How many did you get right? don't lie! So far I have not talked to anyone who knew all the answers about me.  I even got quizzed by a couple of friends and didn't know 1-10 for them. Ouch!

Well, I decided to do this quiz to prove a point that we can see each other everyday and not even know the simplest details in ones life like: favorite color? How much do you know about anyone? In my opinion, I believe that we should spend more time talking to one another and asking some of these questions. Because when you truly know someone how can you judge them? Also, When you know more about a person and they know more about you their is an understanding and you will begin to develop more of an opinion rather than just stating you dont like a person without knowing them.

 

 

Come on people lets get to know one another better! 

 

 

 

 

 

Friend or Foe?

According to Thesaurus.com here is a definition for "Friend and Foe"

Main Entry:	friend  [frend] Show IPA
Part of Speech:	noun
Definition:	confidant, companion
Synonyms:	acquaintance, ally, alter ego, associate, bosom buddy, buddy, chum*, classmate, cohort, colleague, companion*, compatriot, comrade, consort, cousin, crony, familiar, intimate, mate, pal, partner, playmate, roommate, schoolmate, sidekick, soul mate*, spare*, well-wisher
Antonyms:	enemy, foe

Main Entry:	foe  [foh] Show IPA
Part of Speech:	noun
Definition:	person who is an opponent
Synonyms:	adversary, antagonist, anti*, enemy, hostile party, rival
Antonyms:	friend

"Speechless" is the best word I can come up with when I find out that this person I thought was my friend isn't really my friend. Life is challenging at times when it comes to friends. ..sometimes you dont know who really is your friend... I think sometimes we even forget what it means to actually be a friend because we get into this selfish way of thinking. What can somebody do for me? Instead of What can I do for the person? So messed up!Personally, I would rather know first hand that the person is really as much as my friend as I am there's I cannot think of a person that would rather be lied too. Okay, I could use a personal story on this topic but I would rather not. This is not a gossip column. Lets just say I am praying for broken friendships and i am praying that the friendships I develop that I am and can be a real friend to them and that they would be a real friend to me.  I know for certain one friend that is not and will never be a foe. God! Everyone else you never know! You just have to  trust that person to be a real friend and hope for the best.  

Proverbs 17:17

New Century Version (NCV)

 ¹⁷ A friend loves you all the time,
       and a brother helps in time of trouble.

Luke 6:31

New Century Version (NCV)

³¹ Do to others what you would want them to do to you.

Ephesians 4:29-32

New Century Version (NCV)

 ²⁹ When you talk, do not say harmful things, but say what people need—words that will help others become stronger. Then what you say will do good to those who listen to you.³⁰ And do not make the Holy Spirit sad. The Spirit is God's proof that you belong to him. God gave you the Spirit to show that God will make you free when the final day comes.³¹ Do not be bitter or angry or mad. Never shout angrily or say things to hurt others. Never do anything evil.³² Be kind and loving to each other, and forgive each other just as God forgave you in Christ.

Colossians 3:12-14

New Century Version (NCV)

 ¹² God has chosen you and made you his holy people. He loves you. So you should always clothe yourselves with mercy, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience. ¹³ Bear with each other, and forgive each other. If someone does wrong to you, forgive that person because the Lord forgave you. ¹⁴ Even more than all this, clothe yourself in love. Love is what holds you all together in perfect unity.

CS Lewis writes:“Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art… It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival.”

Pro Life (Anti Abortion)

 THE FOLLOWING BLOG IS NOT: Graphic,Judgmental,Condemning or To harm those who have either gotten an Abortion or know someone that has.

THE FOLLOWING BLOG IS: Pro Life 

 

When did human life begin? At Conception! 

 

Here's a baby at 20 weeks!

 According to Christianliferesources.com TOTAL ABORTIONS SINCE 1973:
52,008,665 and counting... :-(

 

Isaiah 49:1

New Century Version (NCV)

Isaiah 49

God Calls His Special Servant

 ¹ All of you people in faraway places, listen to me.
       Listen, all you nations far away.
    Before I was born, the Lord called me to serve him.
       The Lord named me while I was still in my mother's womb.

Jeremiah 1:5

New Century Version (NCV)

 ⁵ "Before I made you in your mother's womb, I chose you.
       Before you were born, I set you apart for a special work.
       I appointed you as a prophet to the nations."

Psalm 139:13-16

New Century Version (NCV)

 ¹³ You made my whole being;
       you formed me in my mother's body.
 ¹⁴ I praise you because you made me in an amazing and wonderful way.
       What you have done is wonderful.
       I know this very well.
 ¹⁵ You saw my bones being formed
       as I took shape in my mother's body.
    When I was put together there,
 ¹⁶ you saw my body as it was formed.
    All the days planned for me
       were written in your book
       before I was one day old. 

Luke 1:41

New Century Version (NCV)

⁴¹ When Elizabeth heard Mary's greeting, the unborn baby inside her jumped, and Elizabeth was filled with the Holy Spirit.

The following is a note I wrote on Facebook a few years ago and I still agree with what I said to this day. 

MY thoughts on abortion

by Jessica Farnsworth on Saturday, October 25, 2008 at 11:04pm

Im Pro-life all the way. No matter the circumstance i do not think women should kill their Babies.A fetus is a baby. Their are better options. Think about it you could of not been born because somebody told your mom it was okay to get an abortion. Thats not right! Not even just as Christians but as real people with hearts we should believe in the lives of unborn babies. Also, i do not think that if you were in the position to get an abortion that you would just be ok with it. You would regret it. Anyone i have talked to who has an abortion regrets it because they know it was another human being that could of lived. In fact, women who get an abortion often are depressed because they spend their lives wondering what that baby could have became. Im so tired of hearing people tell other people that its okay to get an abortion because its your body you can do with it what you want too. Who are you to play God with an unborn babies life?

Now i know i may get some pretty nasty feedback about this blog but these things are what i believe and they are my opinions that i just chose to share.

Why now? well its because i read all over Facebook and I hear a lot of people talk around me about how abortion is ok. and Its not. 

Go under my notes and go to it if you would like to read the comments. 

Anyways, To this day under no circumstance do I believe an unborn baby shouldn't be born. If someone is raped then you can still carry the baby to term and give it up for adoption. If their is a risk that you may die well then at least you are sacrificing one life for another.  And Jesus is full of miracles you still may live. Like I said in my Facebook note Who are we to play God? God created us for a purpose Jeremiah 29:11 states that very clear.

I have been speaking up for those who are unborn my whole life. I will continue too but it doesnt mean that I condemn those who have gotten Abortion and will pray for those who have or known someone who have but any way you look at it. It is Sin!  You body is not yours! God created you! If you have gotten an Abortion I encourage you to repent and to turn your sin over to God.

Pray for the unborn!

  

I am going to also ask that you pray for AngieAntiTheists who is constantly uploading videos on youtube about how Their is no God and how Abortion is the best Option. She does believe that she has rights to her own body and that God is mythical.  She also in her Abortion video told people "Have a great and Godless day"

Also pray for this girl that was once my friend in the 9th grade. I am ashamed to admit this but when she told me she had an Abortion and was proud of it  I was really upset with her and I at the time wasnt mature enough to witness to her or stay her friend so I ended the friendship. I wish that I hadnt.

Lastly pray for Lil wayne  and other singers that have songs about abortion being okay. 

 Barbarba Ann Hansard one of my best friends that passed was right on when she commented on my Facebook Note I really enjoyed all the responses but hers in particular really spoke to me.

Barbara Ann Hansard

May we start praying more... praying for God to send revival to our nation... praying for the one who makes life, to save that life... whichever way He plans. Yes.. we do have free will... but I also believe with all my heart.. that if you don't seek God's face in times like these, that it will get worse! As Christians, we must stand firm. Firm in the Faith... Firm in what we read in the Word... Firm in God!!
What does God say about Abortion?...
Don't respond to my reply on this without really ... truly... seeking the one who Made YOU... about the topic!

"Ignorance is bliss... that's why you ask questions!"

♥ Barbara

Love you guys.... :) Seek Jesus and Pray

October 26, 2008 at 5:46pm

This girl is 12 years old and she gets it!

 

This song doesnt ay anything about Abortion but it has a powerful Reminder of Gods love for us!

 

How well do you know me? The Quiz

 In 7 days I will write another blog with the results.  Anyways,  you should tell me your answers within the next 7 days I am curious about what you will say. If your wrong you will still not know the answers till 7 days from now. Their is a big point as to why I am doing this quiz which you will find out in 7days when I blog about it.

How well do you know me?

1. How many Siblings do I have?

2. How many times have I been in love?

3. Whats my favorite holiday?

4.  Whats my biggest fear?

5. My favorite zoo animal?

6. What is my favorite exercise machine?

7. In High School I had 4 accomplishments what were they?

8. What state do I want to visit the most?

9. Who is my favorite author?

10. What is my favorite color?

So how many did you get right?:

Less than 5 you dont know me as well as you thought! huh?

If you knew 5 then you kindof know me...

More than 5 you definitely know me :-)